March 2012
1 post
Knowledge is power? Apparently, only the right kind of knowledge will get you anywhere because the more I know, the more powerless I feel. I can think of many more accurate things to equate with knowledge. Hopelessness. Dread. Loneliness. My quest to learn has caused me to see the world with a new perspective. I would say that most of the time, it’s not pleasant. Knowledge unearths the...
June 2011
4 posts
Midnight Macaroni Thoughts
Everything is finite. I can press a key only so many times before it breaks, I can wear a shirt only so many times before it gets too old, I can eat only so many macaroni noodles before the bowl is empty… There’s no point in thinking finitely, it’s inevitable. Instead, think deeply and individually, and make every macaroni noodle last.
Shit I am so silly right now.
Why have they all failed me? Or have I failed them?
I can’t trust because I’ve been let down too many times, I can’t feel comfortable because they’ve never been around.
I can’t decide what to do this Father’s Day because I don’t know if he deserves a thank you.
May 2011
4 posts
“Started crying and I couldn’t stop myself, I started running but there’s no where to run to, I sat down on the street took a look at myself, said where you going man you know the world is headed for hell, say your goodbyes if you’ve got someone you can say goodbye to…. I believe the world is burning to the ground, ah well I guess we’re gonna find out.”
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augdog asked: I think, you over thought this one. And also that you contradicted yourself a bit... Which is fine... When I have long rants, I tend to do that too. Especially when you're trying to draw such a fine line.
"Who I am is the way I let my experiences with people, things, and concepts manifest themselves in my actions, thoughts, and words. It’s not the final product, it’s...
"Who I am is the way I let my experiences with people, things, and concepts manifest themselves in my actions, thoughts, and words. It’s not the final product, it’s...
Me
I’ve been thinking lately, wondering if there really was a “me,” somewhere deep down, if I stripped off all the layers. People preach to “be yourself” and rave about how much inner peace they have now that they “know who they are.”
When people refer to being themselves, it makes me wonder what exactly they mean. I think people put too much stock in their actions, words, and thoughts. They think...
April 2011
29 posts
My biggest fear… I am dreadfully afraid that the things I fear will keep me too preoccupied to accomplish anything.
Yeah Mike's dancing yeah.
It's pretty sad that the most frightening thing...
Where is my prince Eric? :P
I can't wait for warmer weather.
So I can get my outside exercise on. :) Nothing makes me happier than sunshine.
Centipedes and Millipedes > Spiders, in terms of creepiness, where Spiders > 1 inch (but =/= daddy long legs) are an exception.
So FUCK YOU, centipede, who decided to be in my fucking shoe lmao.
I am going to go crazy.
Do you ever read a book, and come across one line...
Banana, nutella, and nonpareils = perfect snack.
augdog:
I used to think people were shallow, but they’re not; people are actually very deep and complex. It is instead life, that is shallow.
Love is our resistance.
Let's play a game. You can ask me ANY question,...
I hate
when I submit my final essay for my english class and realize that it was only the 2000 word minimum if you count the works cited.
FUUU~
I believe in making an impact on the troubled world in which I live, not playing nice so I can move on to one that’s supposedly perfect.
March 2011
19 posts
Every atom in your body came from a star that exploded. And, the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different star than your right hand. It really is the most poetic thing I know about physics: You are all stardust. —Lawrence Krauss
I freakin’ love PBS.
I freakin’ love PBS.
It’s getting dark outside, my internal clock ticks ticks ticks.
I can’t think straight because there’s too much to think about.
What is trust, and why don’t I have any?
The frame of the door was strong enough,
To bear my weight and hold my trust,
So there I stood, looking at the floor,
Wishing I could see some more,
Then I watched the sky with an angry face,
As the clouds rolled in with a stormy grace,
The sun peeped through like a hidden gem,
Threw me out and reeled me in,
It had me searching for the Lord,
But all I found was an open door,
Inviting me...
I want to be moved.
Just one more day until I'm off and away to New...
